Tuesday, August 05, 2008

Ponderings...

Yesterday, and I'm not sure why, I was thinking about all of my friends that are getting engaged or have been married or are having/have had kids, and I started thinking about my current relationship and whether or not we're destined to travel down that path. Like I said, I'm not sure why I was thinking about this, but I was.

So, last night, I asked Jake if he thought that we'd be happy if we ever lived together or got married. His response: "I don't know." Not exactly what I was looking for. He also said that possibly we'd never find out what our lives would be like if we ended up married or living together because if one of us has to move away to get a job or whatever, then we'd never have the opportunity. Again, not the answer I was looking for.

I told him that I had no intention of moving away, and since I'm not teaching anymore, I won't have to worry about going where the jobs are available. Since neither of us is really sure what we'll be doing career-wise after college, we truthfully don't know where we'll end up. I guess it's a pretty realistic dilemma that we probably need to consider before making any future plans, but I hadn't really thought about it until he mentioned it last night.

After he said that, I couldn't help but wonder what would happen to us, to our relationship, if one of us decided to/had to move away to find a job? I've never made an attempt at a long-term relationship, and I don't know if that would be an option for us. His statement really made me stop and think about my future, our future...and I still don't have any of my questions answered.

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