I was just reading through my list of things that I would like to accomplish before I'm 30 and I realized that I won't be able to do everything in the next 8-ish years, but I would still like to do most of it. Maybe I should change the title to "30 things I'd like to do before I get really old" or something like that? I don't know.
Another thing that I have been thinking about lately is "What is 'love'?" Jake and I have been together for over 3 years now and I know that I love him, but I don't know what that love means. I don't know if it's the love that can make a man and a woman stay together their whole lives or if it's more of a friendship love. Since I have had very limited experience with relationships in the past (since Jake is my first 'real' boyfriend), I really don't even have anything that isn't the romantic type of love to go from.
It's really hard to have a question that nobody is able to help you with. I mean, I can ask other people in my life how they knew they'd found the person that they would spend the rest of their lives with, but that really won't help me much since I know that I probably won't be having those feelings. Everyone's situation is different and I just wish that someone could give me a straight-up answer about what "romantic love" really means.
Normally I don't really share things like this with the general public, but mostly I'm doing this in order to get some opinions/advice. I'm just really confused right now, not only with my relationship, but with school and graduation and the lack of job prospects. So, if anyone has any comments on anything like this, please share. :)
I think the point that I was at it was that that was the only person who could make me smile from the inside (now granted I was pretty depressed, so I hope you're already smiling) and when I was looking forward and planning my life I was working them in...without even thinking about it, I took it for granted that I was going to be with that person. I could see us together through anything and everything whereas I've unfortunately seen scenarios in my (future) life where I won't necessarily be having most of my friends in my life, which is sad, but for me, it was impossible to see my life without them.
ReplyDeleteSecond question: Is it that you really feel like it might be a friend relationship or that you haven't been doing anything couple-y and it makes you feel like maybe you could just be friends?