I've been thinking...

Over the past few days, I've been thinking about how my life might have been right now if we'd have stayed in Florida instead of moving back here. It's not that I don't like my life here or the friends that I've made, but it's just something that I've been putting some thought into lately.

It all started when I saw a pic of my ex-boyfriend/best guy friend from Florida on a mutual friend's Myspace page. We never technically dated, but everyone always said we were dating or whatever. I started wondering if we ever would have actually dated if I would have stayed down there. After I left, he found himself a girlfriend and they ended up having a kid together. Even if they aren't still together anymore, I don't see anything happening between us, ever. So, this really isn't a possibility, but I just couldn't help but think about it.

I also started thinking about how one of my best friends is getting married sometime within the next year, and how we always talked about how we would be in each other's weddings. And I don't even know when her wedding is going to be...that's totally not how I expected that to turn out. If I still lived in Florida, I would probably be there helping her make her plans, and I would be stading in the "Maid of Honor" spot in the ceremony. Now, I don't even know if I'll be there for the ceremony. :(

Like I said, it's not like I don't like the life that I have here in Ohio, but I will always wonder how it could have been if we didn't have to move back...if I would have had the chance to stay there and go to high school with my friends. I really hate the fact that I've lost touch with so many people that were so important to me in junior high. When you're that age, you think that the friends that you have right then will be with you for the rest of your life...and then you grow up and find that that doesn't always happen. It's so depressing!