Almost there

I've only got 1 exam, 1 final presentation, and 1 paper due next week and then I'm done for the quarter. So, by Thursday of next week, I will be finished with Spring Quarter 2008 and I should be a Senior shortly after that. I'm so excited! I can't believe I've only got a year left before I graduate. I have no idea what I want to do with myself after finishing college, but I'm sure I'll figure something out over the next year...hopefully.

I wish that I could say that I have exciting plans for this weekend, but I don't. I may be going to hang out with a friend either on Sunday or Monday (since I have Monday off completely :D), but those plans haven't been finalized yet, so I really don't know what I'm doing. I'd also like to say that I'll study for Wednesday's final this weekend, but I'm pretty sure that won't happen. I would like to think that I'd get some work done on my 2 papers that are due next week, but after I leave work today, I don't think I'm even going to think about them until Monday or Tuesday.

I really thought that I was going to try to stop procrastinating this quarter...I really thought this would be the quarter that I got everything together and turned in on time. It started out well, but about 2-3 weeks into it, I just lost motivation. Maybe I'll try again during my summer classes, and maybe, since the quarter is shorter, I'll be able to stick with it the whole time, and that'll be good practice for Fall. I probably shouldn't even waste my time because I'm pretty sure that I already know how this is going to turn out.

Too much crap!

While searching thru some of my boxes looking for a binder that I can use for my resource binder that's due tomorrow, I discovered that I have so much crap that I'm holding onto in the hope that I may need it one day. But how much of this crap will I actually ever need again? I've noticed how many old textbooks I've still got and I'm wondering why I haven't sold them back or tried to get rid of them yet. I was also holding on to some crappy binders that I'd probably never use again for anything important. I just don't know what possesses me to hang on to all of this stuff...?

It also made me wonder what kind of emotional baggage I'm holding onto. Lately, I've been in a pretty good mood, but sometimes I just get really frustrated and blow up at people, and it's not even their fault that I'm frustrated or pissed off. I don't really know why I'm acting like this lately (except for maybe the stress that the end of a quarter brings on) and I just wish that it would just go away. I hate being a bitch to everyone for no reason (but not when they deserve it ;p). I hope that once this quarter's over, I'll stop being bitchy but I really don't know what the odds are that that will happen.

Birthdays and (surprise) graduations

I knew that I had a few birthday parties and one Memorial Day cookout to attend this weekend, but I had no idea about Michael's graduation party until Britt came over last night. When she mentioned it, I realized that I hadn't been invited, so I told her that I wasn't going to be there. Well, I realized that my brother had been given something that he was supposed to deliver to me from Michael a couple of weeks ago. I finally put 2 & 2 together and figured out that it was probably an invitation to the graduation that my brother was supposed to deliver. And, it turns out that that's exactly what it was.

So, I received the message, but it was about 2 or 3 weeks after it had been given to my brother, 1 day before the party. I swear, you can't trust that boy to remember anything! I'm going to have to tell Michael not to give him anything important anymore. ;p

When Britt was talking about going to the party and when I realized that I hadn't been invited, I was a little sad because I like hanging out with the Plaughers and I couldn't figure out why they hadn't called me or anything to tell me about Michael's party. But, I felt better once I realized that I had actually been invited, but the message was lost on its way to me.

So, then I was stuck with the task of figuring out what to get him...and I had less than 1 day to get his present. I decided to get him a musical card (it plays "Shout") and I'm going to stick some money in it and call it a day. I figure that he can always use money. :)

I feel so left out...

I just realized not too long ago just how little I'm able to communicate with Jake outside of text messages. He came over for about an hour after I got home from class. When he got here, I was checking my e-mail, but I finished that up and we started watching "National Treasure" (because it was on TV and my DVD and VCR don't work ATM). During the hour that he was here, he received about 3-5 texts. While that doesn't seem like a lot (and compared to the amount he usually gets, it's really not), it always seems like he's always getting texted while we're hanging out. And, worst of all, he always answers the texts, so they figure he's available or whatever and keep texting him back.

I was looking thru his texts on his phone and I realized that he is able to hold conversations with his "texting buddies" and it seems like I have to fight with him to get him to give me a complete sentence sometimes. You'd think it'd be easier to talk to someone face-to-face instead of having to type everything out. I don't know...maybe it's just because he's a guy and they don't communicate like women do, which is what I'm used to. Or maybe I'm just not interesting enough to hold a conversation with (which could be true since we see each other pretty much every day). Whatever it is, he seems to enjoy texting his friends more than talking with me, and I find it very frustrating when you can't hold someone's attention long enough to get out a few sentences before you lose them.

Like I said, I'm probably just being a dumb girl and expecting him to converse with me like my Mom and my female friends do. But, am I being unreasonable in wanting him to be able to pay attention to me while I'm talking to him? Am I asking too much?

There's potential...

I just spent about an hour and a half sitting outside of Jake's house around a fire with him and his mom. We were having a pretty good time, even though each of us was either almost caught on fire or nearly smoked out. While I was sitting by the fire, I decided to grab one of the kittens and bring it over to sit with us. I grabbed the little calico and brought her back over to the fire.

She was so cute. At first she was a little nervous, but she eventually warmed up enough to start purring really loud and she even rubbed her little face against mine. It was so adorable! So, I came home and was talking to Mom about the little cutie. I told her how I decided to name her "Artemis" because she was being very curious (sort-of like a hunter) and she's such a beautiful little kitty.

So, I've named her now, and that's probably a bad thing. Every time I get attached to one of the kittens out there, they usually don't make it or they end up disappearing. I really don't want that to happen to this one. Mom said that I should try to convince Dad that we need another cat. So, I'm thinking about asking them for this little kitten for my birthday. That's still a few months away, and if she makes it that long, then she'll probably be okay.

I've really been missing Missy lately, but mostly I've been missing having a cat to sleep with me at night. I can't remember any prolonged period of time where I've gone without having a cat in my bed that I've had to contort my body around, because Heaven forbid you make them uncomfortable! ;p

I really don't think that Salem will like the idea of bringing another cat into the house, but I really don't care. It's just something that he'll have to get used to. When the weather's warmer, he's not really inside all that much, anyways.

I know I shouldn't have named her because now I really want to bring her home with me! But, when I was talking to Mom, it sounded like I might have some hope of actually getting to adopt her. I told Mom that she's all I would ask for for my birthday. Mom said that as long as I agree to take on her medical responsibilities, I might actually have a chance of Dad agreeing to it. :D

I suck...

I just became clear to me just how alone I am now. I was sitting downstairs watching "Bulletproof Monk" with Jake shortly before he started getting ready to go to work when I realized that I have no more friends left in this town. Besides Jake, everyone has moved away (at least for the school year) and left me here all alone (not that they did that intentionally).

I can't help but feel like such a loser, though. Here I am, on another Friday night, sitting alone in my room on the computer (while simultaneously watching TV) and doing absolutely nothing exciting. I can't do this every weekend! I need to have a life sometime!

When Jake was in the bathroom changing into his work clothes, I thought to myself, "Hey, I'll call one of the girls and see if they wanna hang out." Then I realized that nobody was closer than a 45-minute drive. That was really depressing. I haven't seen any of my friends in weeks and that's really depressing.

I've been pretty busy with school and everything this quarter, so I haven't made the efforts that I should have to hang out with anyone, but if everything goes right, I'll be having Thursday-Sunday free every week this summer, so I'll probably be able to actually go somewhere and hang out with friends (unless some emergency arises with Dad...which could happen).

The most exciting thing that I did today was pull up a holly bush that Mom wanted to get rid of so we could plant prettier, less harmful plants in its spot. Tomorrow Jake and I are supposed to go se Narnia in the afternoon. I hope Wapak get it because I really can't afford to pay Regal prices, especially since I know I'll have to pay them next week when the new Indiana Jones movie comes out.

My life sucks...

3 more weeks...AHHHH!

I've somehow managed to make it this far but whether I make it to the end of the quarter still remains to be seen. There are so many projects and papers to do before the end and it's starting to become clear to me that I may not have time to finish everything and have a life while I'm doing it. That really depresses me because some really (potentially) awesome movies are coming out over the next couple of weeks and I really want to see them. So, some sacrifices may need to be made in order to make that happen. That scares me a little...if I only do a half-assed job on my final projects, I cannot guarantee that I'll get good grades this quarter. I really want to do well this quarter!

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I tried to sign up for my 2 summer classes and it wouldn't let me into Music 370 because I need "instructor's permission" to get into that class. So, instead of trying to track the prof down, I might just talk to my adviser and see if she can put me into the class, or I might even try to call the prof tomorrow while I'm at work (cuz I'll be on campus most of the day). I've heard some not-so-nice things about this prof, and I just hope that her class is easier than the time I've had trying to get into it!

I'm such a bonehead!

I almost slept thru my English midterm this morning. I set my alarm for 8:30, and I was planning on getting up and getting to school about half an hour early to do some studying for the midterm before it started. Well, when my alarm went off, I decided that 9:00 sounded better, so I reset my alarm. I either didn't actually reset it, or it just never went off again, because I didn't wake up again until like 10:21...my class starts at 10:20. So, I jumped out of bed, threw on some clothes (I'm pretty sure that I'm wearing the same jeans that I had on yesterday), brushed my teeth, and ran out the door. I got to campus and found a parking spot by a few minutes before 11:00. I walked up to the building and had to talk myself into actually going in the classroom (I was afraid that the prof would tell me that I couldn't take the test today because I was late).

Thankfully, he seemed happy that I had just shown up and that I had been able to wake up before the class time was over. That was a little bit of a relief. Unfortunately, since I had not gotten up in time to do any additional studying, I think that I -bombed- the test. If the prof has enough pity on me to give me a C, I'll be shocked and probably die from it. I was worried about this midterm before I slept in too long and missed my extra pre-test study time. I don't think I have much hope for getting out of this class with anything above a C.

ACEI Book Fair

I got home about 15 minutes ago after volunteering about 4 hours to work the ACEI Book Fair on campus. It would have made for a -very- long day for me today, but I e-mailed the Title 1 teacher this morning and told her that I wouldn't be making it in today because I felt like crap when I woke up this morning. So, I've got about 3 more weeks to squeeze in 6 more hours of volunteer time there...hopefully that's enough.

Anyways. I was there from 4 to about 10 til 8. I wasn't sure how long it would take to pack everything up afterwards, but I volunteered to stay and help. I found out after I started my shift that we were getting an additional $20 worth of free books for staying to help pack up (that $20 being added to the $30 I was already getting for working the 3-hour shift). I already went in on Tuesday and bought about $55 worth of books for about $24 (everything is 50% off). So, I've got a pretty good start on my personal children's library. I plan on buying more during the fair next year, but I haven't decided if I'll be volunteering again because next spring I'll be doing my senior block and I don't know if I'll have the time to volunteer.

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In other news. I have a midterm tomorrow that I haven't really studied for. I should be worried about it, and I'm sure that I will be tomorrow morning, but right now, honestly, I could care less about that midterm. This quarter sucks so much and I can't wait for it to be over. I've pretty much resigned myself to the fact that I'll be getting some low-ish grades this quarter and I think I'm okay with that.

I would say that I'm looking forward to summer break, but...I'm not actually getting a break this year. I decided to take classes this summer so that I won't get overloaded (or stuck taking 5 classes) any quarter next year because I figure my "senioritis" is going to be bad enough. Plus, I really don't want to have to take the music class with the mean lady my last quarter in college...I don't think that would be a good idea.

I just really want a long break from school. By the time I graduate next spring, I'll have been in college for 7 straight quarters without a significant break...I don't know if I can handle that. Fortunately I'm only taking 6 credit hours this summer and I'll only have 13 credits Fall quarter, so maybe I'll be able to relax a little those quarters and it won't be as stressful as my others have been...?

That's what I get for thinking...

I had thought that I wasn't -that- far behind with my school work...until I got to class today. I was sitting in my English class and I realized how lost I was and how unfortunate that is because we have a midterm on Friday. When I got to my 2nd class of the day (Basic Media Skills), I found out just how much I have to do before that class is over. Thankfully I'll be done with it after the 19th of this month, but I still think that the prof is requiring -way- too much work from us for a 1-credit-hour class!

I just hope that I can make it thru the next couple of weeks without either 1) dying, 2) developing an ulcer, or 3) killing someone!