Freaking out (a little)!

Over the last week or so, I've come to discover that I'm going to be a bridesmaid in 3 weddings next summer. I hadn't expected to be involved in 3 weddings which appear to be happening over a period of 2 months. The wedding in June doesn't really bother me, but I'm concerned about the 2 that are tentatively scheduled for July because 1 is taking place in Ohio, while the other will be in Florida.

I'm starting to worry that these 2 weddings will be scheduled for the same day and that I'll have to pick which 1 I go to. It's really not a hard decision because I'm going to be the 'maid of honor' for the wedding in Florida, so of course I would have to back out of the other 1 and go to that 1, but I really don't want to hurt anyones' feelings, so I'm praying that they pick different weekends. And I'm also hoping that those weekends are as far apart as they can be!

Another big issue that I'm having is that I'm (completely) broke and I have to come up with not only the money for 3 bridesmaid dresses, but also for getting my hair done and buying wedding gifts...not to mention the plane ticket that I'll need for flying down to Florida. I'm really concerned that I won't be able to afford everything. Because of this fear, I have decided that I -will- be putting money aside every paycheck and that I won't touch it unless I absolutely have to because of an emergency.

Wish me luck!

I want to kill things...

I was just completely overwhelmed at work about 10 minutes ago. I was trying to finish up a filing project, which involved putting labels on folders for students who don't have a folder yet and then putting their papers into said folder. While in the midst of this project, about 3-5 people walked in for Late Registration meetings with the advisors (not all at once, but pretty close). I was also on the phone for about 10 minutes with some woman who wanted me to answer a question that I couldn't because the only person that would have been able to answer it was gone for the day.

Even while I was dealing with all of this, more people came in and I kept getting more phone calls. Thankfully one of the advisors was up front speaking with a student and she helped me out with the people who were walking in while I was busy answering the phone. I probably would have thrown something at the next person (or the phone) if she wouldn't have been here to help me.

I swear that the world always knows when I'm at the front desk by myself! My co-worker left at 1 and my boss didn't come in today, so I'm completely alone up here and everyone seems to know that and they all flock here as soon as I'm by myself. It's ridiculous!

Well...

We didn't move the piano yesterday because we couldn't find enough people that would have been available to help us lift it. So, we rescheduled the move for a couple of Sundays from now and hopefully all of the big, strong guys we had lined up to help us won't have any other obligations and we can get this move done and over with. I honestly think that the dread that I'm feeling about having to help move this huge piano is worse than the actual moving is going to be, so I should just stop. I don't have to worry about it for a couple of weeks, anyways.

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I've been reading one of the books on my list (The Malloreon, Vol. 1) and it's taken me a while to actually start getting into the book and being excited about what's going on. Now that I've gotten to that point, it's hard for me to put it down sometimes. Even with that, it's still going to take me forever to finish it because it's technically 3 books in 1, and I still have the 2nd volume (which has 2 books in it) to go. I was really hoping to have more books crossed off my reading list by now, but this 1 is taking forever for me to get thru.

I have so many more books that I want to read and there is only about a month before Fall classes start, and I'm guessing that I won't have much time for extracurricular reading once classes begin, tho I am only taking 13 credit hours that quarter, so that could be promising. :)

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I feel like I never have anything important to say in this thing, like I'm just writing crap down and there really isn't a point to it because it's stuff that nobody cares about or wants to waste their time reading. I know that I've had a few good blogs in the 5 years since I started this, but it's been 5 years and I've probably had only a handful of blogs that were worth reading...it's kinda sad, really.

That just shows you how exciting my life is. I wish that I could blog about taking road trips and going on vacation, and about doing crazy/fun things with my friends, but those things seldom happen in my life. I always make big plans, but nothing really ever goes thru. So then I just end up blogging about how I hate school, which will be over soon. What will I blog about when that's done?

Fun, fun

We get to move a 2000 pound piano today. Hurrah... I'll be very glad once that's all over because I'm sure it's going to be difficult and unpleasant. Hopefully everything goes well and we don't have any accidents, injuries, or casualties.

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I know that I've complained about this recently, but yesterday I realized that it's the end of August and we only have about a month left of summer...and I haven't really done much with my summer. I had all of these big plans and I guess that I had thought the summer would be a little longer than it was. It was probably the fact that I took classes this summer and lost about 5 weeks of my summer as a result. I really wish that I could have those weeks back!

It's really hard to make any plans right now because Jake and I are working pretty much opposite shifts at the moment. I work mostly the beginning of the week during the day and he's working at night on the weekends. That makes it very hard for me to come up with a day during the week (besides Sunday) that would work for both of us.

But, soon he'll be starting his job at Grandview Video & Tanning and then he won't have to work nights, and that'll mean that he can get up relatively early the next day and go do something. I really hope that he enjoys his new job and that he sticks with it, even tho the pay isn't quite as good as what he's getting a the store, but the hours are going to be so much better for him, especially since school is coming up.

Wow!

I just realized that I've been blogging on this site for a little over 5 years. I can't believe it's been that long since I started my blog! I was looking at my archives and I looked at the first month that I had and posts, and it was April of '03. I just can't believe that this blog holds a record of the last 5 years of my life and I didn't even realize I'd written that much in it!

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In other news, today is Jake's 22nd birthday. His parents are taking him out to dinner at Texas Roadhouse. I'm meeting them there after I get off work, and then I have to buzz over to Community Market, buy him a bottle of Spice Rum, take that home and wrap up his gifts. Then, I get to head over to his house for cake and, I'm guessing, ice cream. :)

Strange dream...

I had a pretty strange dream last night. I don't remember much about it except for the last maybe 10 minutes. I do know that in the dream, Jake and I were getting married. But, the priest or whoever was marrying us didn't seem to have everything in order and he left some important parts out (like the exchanging of the rings). So, Jake and I were standing in the lobby (I'm guessing it was of the church we were married in) and he pulls my ring out of his pocket and we exchange rings, each saying a little something while we put the rings on each other. I can't remember exactly what I said, but it was to the point of, "As long as this ring is around, I will be, too." The way I said it in the dream was a lot more romantic and poetic, but I can't, for the life of me, remember what I said.

The strange part about this dream, besides the whole marriage thing, was that the ring Jake put on me, when he first put it on my finger, appeared to have little green spikes coming up from it. I'm not really sure what significance that has, but the next time I looked at the ring, they weren't there anymore, and I remembered commenting to his mom that I thought he had given me a ring with spikes on it. I really don't know what that was all about.

But, this dream made me realize something. The wedding was a lot like our relationship...we argue quite a bit and nothing ever seems to go as planned, but at the end of the day, we're still together and we still love each other. In the dream, at the end of the day, we were married and no matter how well (or not) the ceremony went, it didn't change that fact.

I still don't really understand the point of the dream, but it did give me hope that, if we do marry sometime in the future, that we might be happy. It may be from all of the weddings that are coming up in the coming year that made me have this dream, but it kind-of caught me off guard because usually the guys in my dreams don't have a face, and this guy that I married was definately Jake. I'm not sure how to take it, so I've decided to take it as a good sign for the future.

'As You Like It'

Last night, I watched 'As You Like It' with Jess. It's based on the Shakespeare play and maybe that's most of the reason that I was confused throughout the whole movie, but it could also be that we had the volume turned down a little low at the beginning cuz Jess's niece was over and she was sleeping. Whatever the reason, I spent most of the movie being confused about what was going on. It wasn't until about half-way thru it that I realized that 2 of the main characters were Rosalind and Orlando, which are the characters in the play that Josie's English class is discussing in 'Never Been Kissed.' Even after this dawned on me, I still didn't really know anything that was going on.

It wasn't a bad movie and some parts of it were actually pretty funny, but of course, it's Shakespeare, so everything is painfully drawn out and the issues seemed like they could have been handled more effectively in about 1/3 of the time. But, it was still pretty good.

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Tonight is the Lynard Skynard concert and I'm pretty excited about it! It looks like I'm going to end up driving to the Allen County Fairgrounds tonight because it appears that Jake doesn't want to drive. This will make my 6th trip in the past 7 days to Lima. I'm not too happy about so I'm going to try to talk Jake into driving once he comes over. :)

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While I was at the mall yesterday taking my brothers school clothes shopping, I picked up a few things for Jake (because his birthday is Wednesday). I got him 2 nice shirts from Old Navy because it's been a while since he's gotten any new ones. I picked him out one short-sleeved shirt and one long-sleeved shirt. Both of them can be either worn for casual-wear or dressy-casual, so they're pretty versatile.

After we finished up in Old Navy, we crossed the little hallway and went into Spencer's. It didn't take me very long to get his presents from there because I already knew what I wanted to get him. They had some Captain Morgan's paraphernalia which I saw the last time I was in there, and I had decided that I would go back and get him some of that stuff. I ended up picking him up a Captain Morgan's throw, which is made out of material that somewhat feels like a hoodie, and I bought him 2 glasses that have 'Captain Morgan's' on them. I figured he can use those for his rum -n- cokes. I also plan on picking him up a bottle of CM Spiced Rum for his party.

I ordered him a book online that's called 'Tigerheart.' I figured he would like it because it sounded like it was pretty similar to 'Peter Pan,' which he's a pretty big fan of. So, all of these presents should make for a pretty good birthday. I always go a little crazy when it comes to buying birthday and Christmas presents for him, but I don't think that I went as crazy as I usually do this time. I'll probably make up for it around Christmas. :)

Busy weekend ahead

I've got a lot of plans for this weekend and I'm hoping that I can fit everything in. I have to take my brothers shopping for school clothes tomorrow...yay. And tomorrow night I'd like to watch movies with Jess. Sunday night we're going to the Lynard Skynard concert at the Allen County Fair. I'm sorta excited about that, but I don't know many of their songs off the top of my head, so I'm not sure how many I'll actually know.

I'm hoping that I can trade days with my coworker so that I have next Tuesday off instead of Thursday so that Jake and I can use our King's Island tickets before the season ends. I spoke with my coworker about trading days off and he seemed fine with it as long as I gave him a heads-up. I hope that Jake and I can go soon because I'd like to go when we have nice weather and not when it's too cold to ride all of the water rides.

Wasted...

It's almost the end of the summer (even though we have a little over a month before college starts back up) and it feels like I've gotten 0 things accomplished. I haven't really even been able to have much fun, either.

This past weekend, we had 2 family weddings on Saturday, and 1 of my friends was having friends over to celebrate her 21st birthday, which I really wanted to be at, so I told my mom that I was going there Saturday night. She pretty much flipped out and was like "I see where your loyalites lie...with your friends," and all that bullshit. So, we argued about that for awhile, and finally I said "whatever," and went upstairs because I was tired of arguing about it and I had made up my mind that I was going to the party.

Later that night, she had finally calmed down enough for me to explain to her that I was planning on going to the receptions and that I wasn't going to leave 5 minutes after I got there, so she was okay. But I was really pissed that she had gotten all mad and tried to guilt-trip me into not going because she thought I was choosing my friends over my family.

First of all, I don't even know the 2 family members that got married very well, and second of all, neither of them would be willing to stay the entire time at my wedding reception, so I didn't really feel the need to stay the whole time at theirs.

Secondly, I haven't gotten to go and hang out with my friends very much. Usually, if I want to see them, they either have to stop by my house or we meet up somewhere in town. It's not fair for me to keep asking them to drive into town (because most of them now live in other cities) to see me all the time and not offer to go visit them. So, I figured I could at least handle driving the 45 minutes to Katy's house at least once this summer. It turned out to be a lot of fun, and now I'm hoping that I'll get the chance to do it again before the summer is over. :)

The weekend

This weekend went by so quickly, but it was fun. I'm not sure what I did on Friday, except that Brittany came over and we hung out for a while and talked with my mom and my cousin. I'm not even sure what all we talked about, but I'm sure it was entertaining because we were talking for a couple of hours and it didn't even seem like it had been that long.


Saturday was pretty busy. We had 2 family weddings that day. My dad's cousin got married and my cousin got married, and the weddings were only 1 hour apart. Thankfully they were both in Lima, so Mom and I were able to make it to both ceremonies. I just hope that we don't have to deal with anything like that again. It really could have been so much worse, but I would have liked to have been able to see everything at both weddings, but I guess it's not that big of a deal because I don't really know either of them or their spouses very well.


Saturday night, after I got home from the weddings and changed, I headed out to Van Wert for Katy's 21st birthday party. I made it there without getting lost or missing any turns or anything! The drive home wasn't quite as successful, however. I was trying to find US 30 (or whatever it's called), but the road wasn't marked very well and I couldn't find any signs for it when I tried to reverse the directions that I followed to get there.


On Sunday, I went to Mom and Dad's friends' birthday party. I didn't stay very long because I was pretty tired after not having slept very well the night before. Jake was supposed to come with me but some things came up and he wasn't able to...whatever.


After the party, I went back home and rested for about 20 minutes, and then I headed over to Jake's house. After dinner, he and I, and his sister and her fiance went down to the Springer family pond and went fishing. I actually caught a fish this time (after having been unsuccessful with my attempts the previous weekend), and Jake caught one, as well. I was really starting to not like fishing before I caught mine, and now I think that I should go out and buy my own pole so I don't have to keep borrowing theirs. :)

Newly revised book list

I realized today that it's been a while since I updated my book list and I've made some pretty good progress, so I figured I would update my list.

Book List:

Undead and Unappreciated
Undead and Unreturnable
Undead and Unpopular
Undead and Uneasy + any new ones that come out
The Wheel of Time series (books 4-whatever)
The Dark Tower series
The Chronicles of Narnia
The Sword of Truth series
Eldest & Brisingr
The Dune series (old & new)
The Xanth series
The Ultimate Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy
Dark Elf Trilogy: Homeland/Exile/SojoumDaughter of the Blood series
Stardust
The Anita Blake Vampire series (book 7-whatever)
The Mallorean
The Vampire Chronicles (except for Interview With a Vampire)
Starship Troopers
Ender's Game & Ender's Shadow
A Song of Ice and Fire series
Angels & Demons
The Da Vinci Code (with pictures)
The Historian
The Catholic Girl's Guide to Sex

So, I've been able to remove a few books from the list, but I've also added a few on, so it doesn't really seem like that impressive of an accomplishment. Oh well... hopefully by the end of the summer I will have gotten through more books and will actually be able to take a whole series off of my list. :)

Ponderings...

Yesterday, and I'm not sure why, I was thinking about all of my friends that are getting engaged or have been married or are having/have had kids, and I started thinking about my current relationship and whether or not we're destined to travel down that path. Like I said, I'm not sure why I was thinking about this, but I was.

So, last night, I asked Jake if he thought that we'd be happy if we ever lived together or got married. His response: "I don't know." Not exactly what I was looking for. He also said that possibly we'd never find out what our lives would be like if we ended up married or living together because if one of us has to move away to get a job or whatever, then we'd never have the opportunity. Again, not the answer I was looking for.

I told him that I had no intention of moving away, and since I'm not teaching anymore, I won't have to worry about going where the jobs are available. Since neither of us is really sure what we'll be doing career-wise after college, we truthfully don't know where we'll end up. I guess it's a pretty realistic dilemma that we probably need to consider before making any future plans, but I hadn't really thought about it until he mentioned it last night.

After he said that, I couldn't help but wonder what would happen to us, to our relationship, if one of us decided to/had to move away to find a job? I've never made an attempt at a long-term relationship, and I don't know if that would be an option for us. His statement really made me stop and think about my future, our future...and I still don't have any of my questions answered.

#450

I believe that this is my 450th blog. That's exciting! I didn't realize I had written that much already. I can't promise that the blogs were good-quality, but they're there.

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Hanyways.

This weekend was a lot of fun for me. I had my 21st birthday party on Saturday, and despite the fact that I felt terrible because I ate too much (because I was afraid of not eating every so often for fear of getting sick from the alcohol), it was a pretty good time. I was surprised that I woke up so early the next day. Brittany left around 9:20, and when she left, she woke me up to say 'bye,' and I pretty much woke up after that.

I had a bridal shower yesterday. It was for my cousin's soon-to-be-bride, whom I've met a grand total of 2 times (including the shower yesterday). But, I guess that's to be expected when my cousin lives in Texas and he and I aren't very close to begin with. I did get to meet his son, Aden (sp?), for the first time yesterday. He was just born a few months ago, so he was still pretty little, but he was such a good baby. He didn't really fuss at all and he really liked the soft football rattle that Mom and I brought him. He was just such a little cutie!