Worried

Last night I almost had a panic attack when I realized that I have an assignment due this Thursday which is supposed to cover my first experience with working with students with special needs...which I haven't had yet. I e-mailed my prof and let her know what was going on (that I had contacted the equestrian therapy place in Lima but hadn't heard back from them yet; I also sent my mom the info for the assignment and she contacted the lady that runs/used to run the reading program at Northridge, so hopefully I can get in there) and she told me that I'll just have to write her a little note when I turn the paper in. So, it's really not that big of a deal, I guess, but I just wish that I had everything lined up already because we're supposed to do 10 hours of volunteer service this quarter and we're almost halfway thru it and I don't have that much free time during the week...eek!

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So, I've been thinking about something lately. I recently had a friend of mine ask me what I thought my personal style was as far as home decor and I really didn't have an answer for her then. But, over the past few nights I've spent a lot of time looking around at my aunt and uncle's house and I realized that their home is styled the way I want mine to be. I'm not sure how to explain it other than that it's kinda "antique store meets country home" with an old-fashioned library sorta twist in some places. It's also modern (as in a refridgerator, stove, microwave, etc.) mixed with old (they have old wooden crates, books, roller skates, and old pots and pans positioned around their house as decoration). It's just a really neat house and the interior design is awesome.

Unfortunately, I lack the ability to look at something in an antique store and envision it as being something else or serving a purpose that isn't what it was originally intended to serve. So, I don't know that I'll ever be able to do those things in my home, but I want to try...at least with 1 room. Thankfully, I've got a while before I'll have my own home and I don't have to worry about all of that right now, but I've just been thinking about things like that since I'm basically living on my own for the next 5 or so days. I guess it's something that almost every girl will think about at some point in her life, but since I've been house sitting for people for the past few months (off and on, of course), I guess it's just naturally come up in my thoughts recently.

Don't get me wrong, I don't mind living at home with my parents because I know that once I'm out on my own, I'm going to have too many expenses and responsibilities that I'm just not ready for and wouldn't know how to handle right now. So, I'm grateful that I can still live at home and not have to worry about rent or utilities or food (well, I usually buy my own lunches, snacks and drinks for school, but that's different) or the like. It's just something I like to ponder, I guess.